Monday night: After palming for about 5 minutes while shifting a black period in my mind, I was able to read 10/60 on the chart indoors.
Wednesday night: I palmed for about 1 minute, then I practiced the method of flashing (palming for a few seconds, opening my eyes for an instant, palming again and remembering the letter). After about 10 minutes of flashing, I read 10/70 on the chart. I then palmed for about 5 minutes and read 10/60 on the chart.
Now I want to write about the slow change in my personality that I’ve observed since starting to improve my vision. This change is not to a new or different personality, but it is a change in awareness of what my real personality is/was. The current myopic personality/self that I have had for a while requires an effort to maintain. Mainly, I keep my thoughts and feelings to myself. Furthermore, when I do express myself, my heart beats very fast and strongly. At the same time my head is filled with the thoughts that what I am saying is “bad” or unkind or wrong. These reactions happen not only in person, but also when I just write an email or message to a friend that disagrees with something they said/did. Pretty much, I’m just afraid to offend anyone. 😦 The personality that I am becoming aware of is my old personality, from when I was younger and less/not myopic (in regard to my vision). This personality is who I really am and who expresses me best. Back then, I spoke my mind and was respectful of others at the same time. I want to have this personality again because I know it will help me in all areas of my life.
As a further note, I had realized this change in personality before (even before I began improving my vision). However, I decided that the change was just because I was becoming more mature. I now realize that maturity has nothing to do with one’s personality; it only has to do with the wisdom in the choices one makes. By the time I have regained my real personality, I will be not only be more confident but more mature and wiser in addition.
I’m not sure if this post will benefit anyone improving their vision, but I just wanted to tell others about this major change in my thinking. Since Bates found mental strain to be the cause of all vision deficiencies, I am sure that a change to my natural, more relaxed personality will allow further improvements in my vision.