The effect of glasses on my emotions

This weekend I wore my glasses much less than I usually do, and I made a couple important observations.

First, my vision without glasses is not as bad as I often imagine it is.  When I looked for details on objects or people, I was eventually able to clear my vision to a degree.  While I did not see things perfectly clear, I could definitely make out shapes and locations of certain details.  I’ve been thinking more about Bates’ concept of central fixation lately, and it seems to me that he is basically saying you should keep your attention on the detail you are looking at.  So, that is mainly what I did when I was using my eyes naturally this weekend.

Second, I also noticed that I was much more emotional than usual this weekend.  It doesn’t seem to make sense that something as simple as some lenses in front of my eyes could have such a large impact on my emotions.  However, when I reflect on my emotional state with vs. without glasses, I definitely attend to my emotions more when I go without glasses.  I seem to stay in a steady emotional state that isn’t largely affected by positive or negative events during the times I am wearing glasses.  I’ve worn glasses for so many years that it almost seems like this level attitude is part of my personality.  However, I definitely notice the highs and lows more when I am not wearing glasses.

I am curious if this glasses on/off difference has affected my mind at a deep level.  Perhaps I wear my glasses so much because my subconscious mind wants to avoid the pain of dealing with past emotional upsets.  Maybe my subconscious mind knows that it will be more aware of the negative memories that spontaneously pass through my thoughts and that it will need to address the emotions invoked.  I know there are still some memories that I have not fully dealt with and accepted, but I thought I had at least dealt with them 90% of the way.  Nevertheless, it seems that my use of glasses has just lengthened the healing process.

It is interesting to see how my eyes and mind work differently when I’m not wearing glasses.  I look forward to the changes involved as I continue to improve my vision.

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4 thoughts on “The effect of glasses on my emotions

  1. dreamersight says:

    Mark,
    I agree completely. People often comment on how spontaneous and open I am, and I was certainly not this way when I was wearing strong lenses and glasses. Glasses may make you see more artificial “clarity”, but they blur the emotional detail, your “highs and lows” which I think are the rich tapestry of Life. It’s not worth it to me, especially since I am learning how to clear my vision naturally if I give myself the time to do so. Keep up the good work.
    Nancy

    • mark825 says:

      Sometimes I need a while to think of my response to other people’s comments. This is true both online and in real life. 🙂

      I’ve also been more spontaneous since starting to work on my vision. In a way it doesn’t feel like my personality is changing, but like I am rediscovering an existing part of my personality. To be spontaneous you have to let go of structure and of doing what you feel you should be doing. This is similar to seeing correctly- you need to let go of effort in trying to see.

      I also think that emotional highs and lows make life more interesting. But, it sometimes is unnerving to relinquish one’s perceived control over the events in one’s life. For me, this parallels my spiritual life in that I need to give control of my life to God.

  2. Rob says:

    Recently I’ve also made the emotions/eyesight connection when I realized that I first needed glasses at an age when my parents were divorcing. Blurred vision as a way to protect myself – literally not wanting to see what was going on around me – combined with problems as a way of garnering attention. 30 years later just now coming to those conclusions. As well as how wearing glasses and contacts have altered the way I project emotionally. Obvious, in hindsight.

    Only recently found your blog, but really enjoying it. Both motivating and comforting. Thanks.

    • mark825 says:

      While I don’t have a distinct event that initiated my myopia around 6th grade, I do remember my life being more stressful. From 1st to 5th grade I was pretty much a straight A student. I had a few constant friends, and overall my life went pretty well through those grades. However, around the start of 6th grade, I started having difficulty seeing the board at school and the TV screen for my video games at home. I also didn’t get good grades at school that year (I think I received at least one D on my report card that year). I continued to struggle with my grades through 7th and 8th grade, and I also remember some friendship drama in that time. I’m not sure what came first: my myopia or lowered grades (I think Bates would say my vision problems led to my school difficulties).

      Anyway, I think it’s good to recognize past emotional upsets that may have started or contributed to imperfect vision. Nonetheless, I put most of my focus on my current visual state and the contributing factors. Even if events from the past started my myopic tendencies, it is my current reaction to those events that is causing my vision to be blurred today.

      Keep your motivation up and I hope your vision improves quickly. 🙂

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